It’s the last day of 2012 and for the past week or so, many bloggers have recapped their year in various ways: memorable moments, top blog posts, evaluations of New Year’s Resolutions. A list of top posts won’t work because I only started this blog in August, having ended Lemonade Life in January. Memorable moments also seems difficult, because there is no way to elaborate on anything happened in those missing six months. As for New Year’s Resolutions, I can’t do those because I didn’t make any! I’m still in the midst of my 101 Things in 1,001 Days (34 down, 67 to go!), and while I know I won’t finish the entire list, it’s still my top priority and guides most of what I do during the year.
During the 2011 Holiday Council with Molly Mahar, I did create a mantra for 2012: Healthy Choices. It seemed more appropriate than coming up with a to do list, since my 101 Things serves as a pretty hefty list as it is. Some of the healthy choices I made this year: extracted myself from a couple of toxic relationships / situations, started running (although the food bit is still a struggle — more on that tomorrow!), began seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist and I’m now taking anti-depressants, which are definitely helping. Another healthy choice is pursuing my long-held dream of being a Certified Diabetes Educator. It’s not the easy choice, but in the long run, I think it will be the healthiest for me and hopefully for my future clients!
Although I didn’t sign up for the 2012 Holiday Council, I wanted to create another mantra for 2013, as a guiding light over everything I want to do. The mantra I chose is Mindful Movement.
Initially I chose the word Movement because I wanted something that would have an emphasis on exercise, because fitness is really something I want to pursue more in the New Year. In addition to running, I’d also like to get back into strength training (I’ve signed up for the Best Body Bootcamp with Tina Reale). On my 101 Things list is to try a yoga, a Zumba and a pilates class, so that should keep me busy too!
I also like Movement because it applies to more than just exercise. It also applies to the rest of our days because we’re always on the move. Eating and hobbies are types of movement, and there’s also the movement of life. The trajectory of our lives, the trajectory of our relationships, the trajectory of our self-esteem.
I want to make sure that I don’t live my life on auto-pilot either, so I tacked on the word Mindful. I don’t want to do the same thing every day because it’s what I’ve always done, what I’ve been conditioned to do or believe or say. I really want to be more mindful of my movements, more aware of what I’m filling my time with and cognizant of the direction of my life. I want to make sure that I am still making healthy choices, but more than anything, I just want to be more mindful of the choices I’m making, even after I have made the choice. I want to have complete and total awareness of what I’m doing even after I’ve made a decision, and continue to observe what’s going on around me.
It’s also important to remember that movements can also be non-movements. Choosing not to exercise. Choosing not to spend time on something destructive or unhealthy. Even the difference between choosing to watch TV or choosing to read a book.
I think that, especially now that I’m an adult, most of what I do is just habitual. It’s built on comforts and it’s built on ease. It’s built on what I already know. But it also leaves out a lot of exploration and experimentation in new things that might be even better.
Do you have a mantra for 2013?